Hey friends, how are you today? How was your weekend? Over here, in my neck of the woods, the weather brought cold and flurries and the family brought busy. We had to go to Ohio over the weekend and I know I’ve said before; I love a good road trip. Whenever my husband notices I feel a bit down, he responds by saying, ‘let go for a ride’. Guaranteed, I feel better afterwards. But this trip to Ohio involved moving our college graduate back home (fun times). How does one accumulate so much stuff, in so little time? My husband says she is her mother’s child, but I’m not convinced. Thankfully her roommates did most of the packing; thank the Lord! Wow!! I went on a tangent there… sorry about. As I was about to say, before I got side track ….
Do you know, the first thing to go, when I am not walking with the Lord? My relationship with people! That’s usually the first thing to suffer. I get impatient with people, I get frustrated with them, I don’t want them too close, I need them to ‘do’ and then ‘go’. I can always tell where I am spiritually, by my relationship with others. I love my own company; I like activities I can do on my own. I like to read, I like to run, I enjoy solitude… Speaking in a group of more than five is out of my comfort zone and crowds usually make me uncomfortable. Yet, do you know, what calling the Lord has gifted me? Yes… you guessed it! He has called me to teach! God has a sense of humor!
The Lord revealed something to me about Himself, a few years ago. I know I should have known this already. But it came as a new thing! Ready for it? THE LORD LOVES PEOPLE! I know right? Shocking! He does not love just me! And He also said, ‘if I love Him, I will love His people’. Wow! What a revelation! Does God really expect me to love even those who are really, really, unlovable? Do you know that those who have not surrendered their lives over to Jesus Christ as their Savior are His people too? Are you telling me, Lord, I can’t be ‘done’ with people?
You see, the thing is… I have this ‘people expectation’ thing in my mind. I expect these particular behaviors and attitudes and actions from them and sometimes they fall short! How dare they! So back to the first paragraph… I prefer solidarity, because people disappoint. They inflict pain. Why should I choose people over a ‘good book’?
I know what you’re thinking now. You’re thinking, “who does she think, she is”? Or maybe, you’re thinking, “she thinks she’s better than others”. And the sad thing is… you would be right! When I get impatient, frustrated and annoyed at others, it stems from a warped relationship with the Lord. I’ve laid down my armor, instead of suiting up. I depended on people to control my actions toward them, instead of trusting the Lord.
In my case, I need the balance; well actually it isn’t exactly balanced; more solitude and less people company, but that 60/40% is not so bad because I can assure you, the Lord has brought me a very long way to there and He is still working on me. The year 2020 has definitely benefited me in this regard because except family, company is few and far in between, which makes time with the Lord an absolute necessity and more time to practice kindness and gentleness and patience on them.
Forgive me Lord, help me to demonstrate your love for me, by loving others. Do you get impatient, frustrated and annoyed at others? Why?