I NEED YOU

Hey friends, how are you doing? How was your weekend? Were you affected by the weather that has been sweeping across the US? Over here, we’ve had snow and snow and snow. We’ve been cold and cold, although thankfully, this week our temperatures are supposed to go up above freezing, which is a blessing.   Hopefully you missed me? Because of several unexpected happenings within my family unit, the time off was a necessity.  Although I try to tell myself that I’m capable of multitasking, when problems involve my people, I find I am only able to apply myself to one thing at a time.  

As I sat at my kitchen window and talked with the Lord, I asked for sunshine because all I had seen lately was dark clouds and gloomy weather.  As a matter of fact, I told the Lord, I could not remember the last time I has seen the sun.  I’m pretty sure, His response was that it had been perhaps less than week when He sent sunshine my way.  It was difficult to recall the sunshine days, because I allowed myself to become overwhelmed by the cloudy, gloomy days.  Sometimes, I even missed the sunshine because I’m still caught up in yesterday’s gloom and drab day.   

When troubles come my way, I always, ALWAYS want the Lord to take it away now! This isn’t part of my plans, Lord. This isn’t profitable for me, Father, this brings me no joy.  So, although I do not necessarily say ‘now’, my actions clearly display this idea.   Sometimes I did not even realize I had placed a time limit on this problem, but I did, because after a while one of two things begin to happen.  

First, I will try to fix the problem my self.  I will coerce, compel,  conjure, command my ‘perfect’ response to solve the problem.  On the days, I succeed, there is always regret, on the days, I do not, I have wasted time and effort because I am back to where I should have been in the first place.  

After this, then comes the ‘woe is me’ attitude.  The sun has disappeared from the sky and will never return again.  Nothing good ever happens to me, my world has literally collapsed because nobody loves me.  When I do not trust the Lord, both responses to any ‘wait’ or ‘no’ from the Lord will usually appear after a while.  It is impossible to maintain godliness or faith without the presence of the God of the Universe.  In order to be faithful, to experience the sunshine and beauty of each day, I cannot take my eyes off the Lord because indubitably I will sink beneath the waves.  When disaster strikes, as it inevitably will, I must plan to succeed. Success is gained when I allow the Lord to work out my problems for my good and for His glory. When I humbly and with gratitude accept the Lord’s ‘wait’ or ‘no’, then I am victorious in my walk with the Lord.   

I gain this success when daily, and perhaps several times a day, I spend time with the Lord,  in His Word (where He speaks to me) and in prayer (where I talk to Him).  On days like these, music that draws me closer to the Lord is good for my soul.  Taking a walk to experience the beauty of God’s world, even with snow on the ground is also welcomed.  Perhaps on days like these, I seek the prayers of the saints and talk with friends that will encourage me to look up.  True warfare is the battle between what I want versus what the Lord desires for me.  

Two weeks ago, our asthmatic daughter contracted COVID’19.  My first inclination was to drive the nine hours to be with her, but perhaps thankfully (not at the time) my husband saw the futility of such a venture.  It would have been impossible to see her because she had to be isolated.  Mercifully all glory to our Heavenly Father, she experienced very little symptoms and is now back in her classes.  That same week, my nephew requested prayer for his seven-year-old son, who suddenly developed a change in his behavior. After numerous tests, doctors are still unable to determine his illness. Another family member suffered the loss of her son, even as she herself, underwent major heart surgery.  

Sometimes life throws us curve balls, sometimes the Lord will send an immediate ‘yes’ response, but other times, He will require that we wait and still sometimes He will say ‘no’.  In times like these, faith has to be exercised.  Trust and belief in the goodness of the  Holy One of Israel is needed.  This is realized when I spend time with the Lord and in His Word.  

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  1. Bless you, Brenda. Good to read your post again, but sorry for the family trials you have been through. I am praying for your nephew’s son, that he gets a diagnosis, understanding and healing. Praying also for the lady with heart surgery and such tragic loss. Praying for you, for His peace and strength.

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  2. We definitely got the snow here! 😂

    I thank God your daughter is recovered. I will be praying for your nephew and the rest of your family as well. I know I could simply remind you how God promises to turn our mourning into dancing, that there’s a special kind of grace in times of hurting, but I also know that sometimes the only thing we can do (which happens to also be the best thing) is to simply cling to God through the night as we continually hope for the morning. I’m here for you, sister, and will stand in prayerful agreement with you and for you.❤️

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  3. I am glad your daughter is okay.
    Sometimes the answer is wait because either we are not ready or others are not ready yet. It can also be because God sees the big picture and the wait is for more pieces to come together

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  4. Thank you for such an encouraging post! My prayers are certainly with you and your family. Also, thank you for your witness. I know you’ve touched many hearts, not just through this post but by your daily walk with God.
    My His face shine upon you, and your loved ones.

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  5. It is good to have you back. Life with all its ups and downs keeps happening. I guess that is good because it’s where we learn to trust the Lord – but the road isn’t so easy. Praying you all are doing well and life is settling down. May the Lord be your strength.

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  6. I’m glad that all is well with your daughter; & I pray for comfort, peace & understanding for your family members. It has been cold here too; but these last two days, it finally got up above freezing; & the sun was shining today, Praise God!

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  7. I missed you. So sorry for the troubles you have been experiencing but thankful your daughter has recovered. I have a daughter who has multiple allergies and is a school teacher. I worry about her getting Covid-19. Sending prayers your way for God’s peace to be yours. Hopefully it is warming up in your area and sunshine coming. Not that it solves the problems but it is always easier I think when the sun is shining. God be with you and yours!

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  8. When disaster strikes we must plan to succeed. God works out all things for our good and His glory. (Romans 8:28).

    I knew this, but seeing it here was a helpful reminder.
    Thank you, Brenda.
    I am praying for you and the difficulties your family has encountered.

    Blessings.

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  9. Hi Brenda, I know and did all the things you said you did to change your troubles in your own power, but I am glad you realize that trusting God is the safest place to be. John 16:33 says,”I [Jesus] have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” Only when we keep our eyes on Jesus will behave peace. Another favorite scripture is Isaiah 26:3, “You keep him/her in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you.” Trouble is inevitable and it is easy to fall into the trap of self-pity. I am currently crawling out of my pit.

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    1. Oh my friend, I completely understand how easy it is to fall into that pit. But our God gives more grace and shows more mercy, especially in times like these. Thank you for sharing these verses, they are exactly what I needed

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  10. Hi again, Brenda; yes, I missed you. I wondered, and I prayed for you because you are faithful about posting, and I knew Something was keeping you away. Your testimony blesses us with a Godly perspective on how to face trials and tribulations, and God’s ever-present love for us. Thank you.

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  11. Hi, dear sister Brenda.
    Wonderful blog, even though it reveals your simple humanity. So you struggle as the rest of us do. What a surprise! 😉 But our “Daddy” understands when I (or we) whine and squall about trivia that seems so important to us in the moment.
    I recall seeing a meme of an actor dressed as Jesus during a break as he was doing the crucifixion scene. Next to him was a “normal” looking guy chatting, and someone had captioned it, “Me telling Jesus how rough MY day has been!” 😁
    Thinking about your “conversations” with the Lord, I love the recognition that the Bible has God’s last word for us. We must never assume “personal prophecy” or ideas from our spirit are God’s will unless they line up with the written Holy Scriptures. That said, prayer is intended to be more than just a one-way communication; us sending signals to a Home Base that can only communicate through the Manual. I know I am probably not telling you anything you do not know already, but I am learning prayer can become two-way as long as it lines up with the word. See https://capost2k.wordpress.com/2017/01/16/disciplined-prayer-2-disciplines-of-a-spirit-led-life/ for more thoughts on prayer as a discipline of a Spirit led life.
    love and prayers for you and your family, ❤️&🙏
    c.a.

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  12. Brenda, I pray your daughter is on the mend (and your nephew). Where would we be without our faith and hope in Christ? It has been easy to be “woeful” during some of these tough times. I have to remind myself each day of my blessings. In the midst of it all, HE IS THERE. On another note, one that will make you smile, is I wish you could pick out my clothes, sister. You always look so beautiful. God bless you, Brenda!

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