Hey friends, how are you doing? How was your weekend? Were you affected by the weather that has been sweeping across the US? Over here, we’ve had snow and snow and snow. We’ve been cold and cold, although thankfully, this week our temperatures are supposed to go up above freezing, which is a blessing. Hopefully you missed me? Because of several unexpected happenings within my family unit, the time off was a necessity. Although I try to tell myself that I’m capable of multitasking, when problems involve my people, I find I am only able to apply myself to one thing at a time.
As I sat at my kitchen window and talked with the Lord, I asked for sunshine because all I had seen lately was dark clouds and gloomy weather. As a matter of fact, I told the Lord, I could not remember the last time I has seen the sun. I’m pretty sure, His response was that it had been perhaps less than week when He sent sunshine my way. It was difficult to recall the sunshine days, because I allowed myself to become overwhelmed by the cloudy, gloomy days. Sometimes, I even missed the sunshine because I’m still caught up in yesterday’s gloom and drab day.
When troubles come my way, I always, ALWAYS want the Lord to take it away now! This isn’t part of my plans, Lord. This isn’t profitable for me, Father, this brings me no joy. So, although I do not necessarily say ‘now’, my actions clearly display this idea. Sometimes I did not even realize I had placed a time limit on this problem, but I did, because after a while one of two things begin to happen.
First, I will try to fix the problem my self. I will coerce, compel, conjure, command my ‘perfect’ response to solve the problem. On the days, I succeed, there is always regret, on the days, I do not, I have wasted time and effort because I am back to where I should have been in the first place.
After this, then comes the ‘woe is me’ attitude. The sun has disappeared from the sky and will never return again. Nothing good ever happens to me, my world has literally collapsed because nobody loves me. When I do not trust the Lord, both responses to any ‘wait’ or ‘no’ from the Lord will usually appear after a while. It is impossible to maintain godliness or faith without the presence of the God of the Universe. In order to be faithful, to experience the sunshine and beauty of each day, I cannot take my eyes off the Lord because indubitably I will sink beneath the waves. When disaster strikes, as it inevitably will, I must plan to succeed. Success is gained when I allow the Lord to work out my problems for my good and for His glory. When I humbly and with gratitude accept the Lord’s ‘wait’ or ‘no’, then I am victorious in my walk with the Lord.
I gain this success when daily, and perhaps several times a day, I spend time with the Lord, in His Word (where He speaks to me) and in prayer (where I talk to Him). On days like these, music that draws me closer to the Lord is good for my soul. Taking a walk to experience the beauty of God’s world, even with snow on the ground is also welcomed. Perhaps on days like these, I seek the prayers of the saints and talk with friends that will encourage me to look up. True warfare is the battle between what I want versus what the Lord desires for me.
Two weeks ago, our asthmatic daughter contracted COVID’19. My first inclination was to drive the nine hours to be with her, but perhaps thankfully (not at the time) my husband saw the futility of such a venture. It would have been impossible to see her because she had to be isolated. Mercifully all glory to our Heavenly Father, she experienced very little symptoms and is now back in her classes. That same week, my nephew requested prayer for his seven-year-old son, who suddenly developed a change in his behavior. After numerous tests, doctors are still unable to determine his illness. Another family member suffered the loss of her son, even as she herself, underwent major heart surgery.
Sometimes life throws us curve balls, sometimes the Lord will send an immediate ‘yes’ response, but other times, He will require that we wait and still sometimes He will say ‘no’. In times like these, faith has to be exercised. Trust and belief in the goodness of the Holy One of Israel is needed. This is realized when I spend time with the Lord and in His Word.