Hey friends, how are you today? How was your week? We had the most glorious weekend. The weather was fantastic, on Sunday our temperatures soared to a beautiful 75 degrees. Although today winter has seemingly returned. But that’s okay because spring is right around the corner. Anyway, enough about the weather, how was your weekend?
Some days I like to think of myself as a logical, analytical person. But truthfully, this is not my nature. I have come to the conclusion that although I wish it was untrue, I am a very emotional person. My feelings have been known to order my steps a few times. I even cry when my favorite person dies in a movie, for crying out loud! For this reason, I detest movies without a happy ending. My philosophy is quite simple, my reality has enough sorrow, I need my make-believe not bring me anymore sadness. I do not watch movies about war or about race because then I become angry or sad, because then my emotions become entangled.
And every once in a while, situations come into our lives and bring with it such an amalgamation of feelings that its description is almost impossible to verbalize. Feelings that consume and literally want to take over life as we know it. Feelings so big, it is almost suffocating. Feelings that threatened to drown out truth and give fear the upper hand. Feelings that need to be unraveled and each one explained and reason out.
Recently I had such an incident, where my emotions battled for supremacy and admittedly for a minute (just for a minute) I gave it free reign. I tried to unravel these overwhelming emotions on my own and every time I thought I had it together, there it came again, seeking the light like an alien being. I just could not control these feelings. Because they were so many, every other incident just added to the already existing ones. Anger, frustration, bitterness, disappointment, sadness, all there like writhing snakes, each seeking to dominate but none will surrender. I knew that if I allowed these feelings control of my actions, I would hurt someone, perhaps not physically but definitely emotionally and even mentally and spiritually. And there we go again… hurting people hurt people.
But I didn’t want that to be my story. I want to exercise this trait that eludes me at times, self-control. I also know that though this implies the idea that I could control this emotional self, I knew that on my own I didn’t have that ability and certainly not soon enough to not cause pain to those around me.
A friend of mine shared this quote with me when I tried to complain. Notice the word ‘tried”, because good friends, ensure you are heard but that you also hear the truth. As Christians, godly friends are important. They help us keep our eyes on the Lord. They motivate, they encourage, they push us to become successful and mature Christians. This life was never meant to be travelled alone. We need other God-fearing people. Well… that’s for the people in the back. This is what was shared with me; “Never let a good crisis go to waste” Winston Churchill and I recently came across this one “No pain that we suffer, no trial that we experience is wasted” (perhaps that should say; ‘should not be wasted). “It ministers to our education, to the development of such qualities as patience, faith, fortitude and humility” (Orson Whitney).
I have also realized these feelings have the tendency to overwhelm when I insist on grasping that ever elusive control of my situation. When I refuse to surrender my will to the Lord and give Him full authority in my life then my emotions threaten to control my actions. But God…
One by one find the source of each emotion, identify the reason for each and surrender it to the Lord. And secondly surrender the situation or situations that brought these emotions to the forefront. And then thirdly set up a plan of action to combat these emotions when they threaten to appear again in the future. Because dear friends, the truth is we have not yet arrived, and today’s experiences become tomorrow’s testimony.
When feelings threaten to overwhelm, how do you cope?