Hey friends, how are you doing today? Can you believe it? This is it, my friends, today is the 3rd of December, the end of 2019 is in sight! What a quick but busy year, this was for me. How about you? Were there any major changes in the year for you? How did you respond to these changes?
Although I relish and look forward to the changes in seasons; still cannot choose just one season as my favorite, they all bring such drastic differences both in the temperature and in the physical appearance, don’t they? I love the changes, I bring to my home, by rearranging the furniture and the placement of decorations; perfect for each season (yep, I’m one of those people). I like the changes in my wardrobe, when I add more clothing, or shoes or more handbags; sometimes, I even remove some items from my closet; I know right?! Who am I? But yes, sometimes it comes to that.
Today, change has arrived in my neck of the woods. By the end of the day, yesterday, after a day filled with constant snow fall, we had accumulated almost a foot of snow. But today, although the snow is still on the ground, the sun is out and although it’s cold, 22°, the arrival of the sun can make even the snow seem beautiful. I really do appreciate these changes.
But I do not like major changes; you know, those that have the ability to derail the trajectory of our lives. ‘Good’ change is fine and acceptable, but ‘bad’ change usually births fear and anxiousness. 2019 brought such changes into my life. I suppose in retrospect, there were some good changes, but honestly, the ‘bad’ changes are easier to recall. Huh! Something to think about!
Four months ago, my mom called to tell me, she had skin cancer. You know, cancer is a scary word. The possible outcomes of such a disease flood the brain. The real desire to fix the problem and make everything ok was at the forefront. Of course, I did what all ‘good’ Christians do; I ran to the Lord but found myself in a pickle. I vacillated between leaving the ‘change’ with Him and fixing it myself. I wasn’t sure I could trust Him to give me the answer I wanted, you see; after all, ‘His ways are not my ways’. Funny thing that… the idea that I could, somehow alter the outcome of such a problem, for a minute there, I forgot, I am not God.
Just a few months later, my grandfather died. Although he had lived long life, (he was 95) I was not quite ready to let him go. I wanted our girls to experience him like I did. I wanted them to know him and love him like I did; but I suppose that was my story, not theirs and I trust the Lord to write my story.
Then less than a month later, while at a store in Ohio, our girls were called the ‘n’ word and literally cussed out, by some guys. Can you imagine how fearful they were? According to them, they thought their lives were on the line! Now for most of us as moms, it is better to attack us, than to attack our kids; the mama bear comes out at this point. I was quite shaken by that, I must admit. I was disappointed and sad that we were not there to shelter them and keep them safe. Do you know, I’ve never been called such names? But then, I suppose that’s their story, not mine and I trust the Lord to write their story.
Most times, instinctively I do not readily accept change. I prefer the change I can control; the change that heralds’ laughter and instant happiness and joy. But I have come to appreciate the drastic changes in life. It is usually these changes that tighten my grip on the Lord. It is usually these changes that strengthen my foundation in the Word of God. It is usually these changes that remind me that I have a formidable Anchor in the Lord. It is usually these changes that hasten my steps into the Lord’s presence. These changes cement my trust in the Lord, because their demonstrate His absolute and always timely, faithfulness. The changes allow me to see the goodness and grace of God. No… I don’t always like change; but I have come to realization that change is necessary for my growth as a Christian and even as a person. Change is for my good; even when I cannot ‘see’ the good.
How about you? Did you have any major changes in 2019? How did you respond?