AFRAID OF THE UNKNOWN

This is the last Friday in the month of April.  Today is April 27, with three days left.  How are you doing? How was the month? Was it difficult or not too bad? Was it just okay? Are there any blessings for which you can be thankful? Or do you feel cursed? Were you a blessing to someone at any time during the month?

I am going to be an empty nester soon.  I know, I know what you are thinking! I am way too young to be an empty nester! Yeah, I think so too. Had I known it would come so quickly, I would have had ten children instead of just two! But here we are, ‘hindsight is 20/20’ they say.  Most people want to know what I am going to do, when the girls leave for college in August.  (Can you see the tears, already?)  The truth is… I don’t know! I really don’t know.  I’ve tried planning (because you know I need a plan), but nothing comes to mind.  I thought of writing more blog posts, but at this point, that doesn’t feel right (I think it would stress me out). I thought maybe a day-time bible study with a few of the ladies might be just the thing.  But again, I don’t know… “Lord, I need to know”, I’ve said.  “I don’t like surprises”.  We’ve talked (well, I did most of the talking) and I told the Lord to just let know what He would have me do.  Did you know I have never, in my entire life, been by myself for 24 hours? (I’ve never lived on my own either, for that matter). I went from my parents’ home to my husband’s home.  I know right, crazy! But that’s the truth! Just thinking about the silence is scary.  We homeschooled the girls throughout their formative years and now it’s time to let them go.  Very simply… I’m scared of the unknown. 2-cor-12-9-e1524837017649.jpg Needless to say, the Lord has faithfully said in 2 Corinthians 12:9… “My grace is sufficient for you, …  “But Lord…” I said, “I NEED to know”.  Still He says, 2 Corinthians 12:9… for My strength is made perfect in weakness.”.    “Just a hint… pleaseeeee”, I say.  But still He says, 2 Corinthians 12:9… “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.”   Can you tell, He is still working on me? I like things neat and tidy, all ‘my ducks in a row’.   Like a chess player, I want to know my moves and His moves too, ahead of time.  But I’ve been called to wait, right now.  “Wait! Lord, I hate to wait”.  I think He knows that, don’t you? Which is why He continues to whisper… 2 Corinthians 12:9… “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” Maybe soon, I’ll get it right.  Maybe today, I’ll say like Paul, 2 Corinthians 12:9…”Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me”.   

I will say the words, because I know, beyond a shadow of a doubt that my God can be trusted; that He is faithful to finish what He started in me (Philippians 1:6).  I will wait to be told what’s next. closing1brenda

 

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  1. Oh I think the Lord will fill that space in due time! I will be an empty nester in a year or so, too. I am already feeling it! Hopefully, I will be married by then lol!!!

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  2. This was right on time! I too have a difficult time with waiting and not knowing all the moves before I begin. Thank you for your transparency and the word to remind us who is in control! Happy Friday!

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  3. Oh wow, congratulations to your girls! Thank you for “boasting in your weaknesses.” It’s refreshing when women do this. I pray for God’s hand of protection and peace for your family as you embark this new season.

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  4. Hi Brenda! Wow, I can relate to your comment, “Like a chess player, I want to know my moves and His moves too, ahead of time.” I am the same way! Thank you for sharing such a heartfelt post, we can all relate to the uncertainty of the unknown. Thank God we know Who holds our future! I am so excited to hear what God has planned for you as you become an empty nester. Blessings to you and your family!

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    1. I will certainly be sharing the process, I need all the prayers I can get :). I have the tendency to mentally give God a time line (sometimes it is not intentional). The closer we get to that timeline, the more anxious I sometimes get. This time I want to wait PATIENTLY …

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  5. The girls may be flying the nest but I’m sure you will speak often & the love will continue to grow. You’ve done such a great job to bring them so far & this is the moment every parent dreads, I know I do… X

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  6. Congratulations on your girls! So scary, the thought of being an empty nester…but you are right, God is there every step of the way!! He will lead you to exactly what He wants you to be doing:) This has been a rough year for us, but God just keeps whispering to me, “All is well.” Over and over and over…God Bless! 🙂

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  7. My oldest decided to do community college at home, so we have another year with her and I’m thankful. We have 7 younger ones to bring up… that was the Lord, for I never thought about an empty nest until last year when my friends began talking about their experiences! We have good friends who began the ministry of foster care when their children married. It has been beautiful to watch them pour God’s love into these children’s lives.
    The unknown really can be scary, but praise God that He always has a plan, and it ALWAYS is GOOD! Can’t wait to hear what He has in store for you next. I know it will be amazing. 🙂
    *Hug*

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    1. Thank you, I have ‘told’ the Lord, I will look after (mother) any children, He sends our way. 🙂 🙂 The unknown is scary, but I do know our God is faithful. He isn’t done with me. The future is exciting, but I can’t wait to know 🙂

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  8. Congratulations on your girls heading off to college – what an exciting but also unknown season ahead… I say, enjoy every minute with them until they leave and then you will figure out what the next season holds for you as Jesus unfolds it. It may be different, but it’s gonna be good. Blessings, we are sorta neighbors at Susan’s #DanceWithJesus today

    PS.. if you are looking for another place to link to on Thursday’s I would love if you would consider joining my new linkup #TuneInThursday – it opens Thursday 3am PST and runs through Sunday night. you can find it at debbiekitterman.com/blog (Please feel free to delete the link if you think it inappropriate).

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  9. Hi Brenda, since you asked how my month was, I’ll tell you. Personally, I’m fine, however, we had a terrible tragedy in my hometown in the neighbourhood where I grew up in Toronto. The area in Toronto where this happened is a suburb and it used to be a quiet little town like Mayberry in the Andy Griffith Show. My heart goes out to the families of the victims.

    You’ll be an empty nester soon as we are already. We actually are happy, because our children are doing well and as you know, even when our children have grown, we still care and are concerned for their well-being. I am grateful to be a Christian and trust God. That doesn’t mean nothing bad can ever happen to us, because my own dear brother was killed in a car accident. I still trust God.

    On a happy note, you look lovely my dear! Beautiful hairdo!

    Blessings!
    ❤️carmen

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    1. I am so sorry for your loss, Carmen. That was hard for your family. I know, sometimes life throws us unexpected curve balls, but God is faithful. He sees and knows all things. And He always has our best interest at heart. He can be trusted, even though the plans we had are so totally different from His. 🙂 🙂 Which I admit can be scary :).

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  10. Maybe this will help until God shows you what’s next. Visit all the places you have never been near your town or city. Think of all the situations God may have waiting for you. Who knows? Not you! You have never been there. It will take your mind off of “doing” and you will find yourself “being.” Adventurous, exciting, challenging and trusting that God will lead you to know what’s next. You never know until you try. Think of it as a vacation from all your DUTIES. Just my thoughts, praying for you too.

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    1. Thank you, these are great suggestions, although because we homeschooled, we went to quite a few of the local attractions already. But I’m sure I can find a few more, perhaps go to a few others, with friends. Thanks again for these suggestions, they are surely appreciated

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  11. Gods got amazing plans for you. I’ve never been on my own either! Left my parents house and immediately married. Marriage is a great adventure, but God also has adventures that are between you and Him. Follow your passions, whatever God stirs in your heart take that as a sign to press foreword. And God bless you

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  12. I can so relate to this. I’m going through the same thing. What are we going to do now!? My husband and I had to give up our small home based business for health reasons. Monetarily we have help. God has always provided when we needed, and He always will… but it’s left me with a lot of time on my hands. (We’re both limited by our illnesses too… so it’s not easy to plan.) I don’t know what’s next. I keep asking for God to lead, but it’s slow going transitioning to the next thing here. (Probably all part of the plan…) Yeah, I don’t like the unknown either! :O

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    1. What are we going to do? 😂😂 my husband will be at work 5-6 days a week. I am sorry about your health isssues, I will certainly keep you and your husband in prayers. We will wait together for that next chapter, let’s see what the Lord has in store for us

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  13. You deserve some rest in the Lord. He probably has something great for you and you will know it. There is a FB page called Healing Heart Prayers that needs an administrator,, it joined thinking I could post requests and pray for people, it is sort of a blank slate. i thought about it myself but I’ve never done that and love doing the blog.

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  14. You are about to embark on one of the best parts of parenting … developing a more adult relationship with your daughters as they spread their wings and become the women God has called them to be. We have 4 grown children and now our grandchildren are beginning to get married (3 of the 14 so far) and we love the time we spend with all of them. And I can tell you, I’ve never been bored or felt “empty.” There is so much to do in the kingdom. You might consider being a Titus 2 woman to some of the young moms in your church. It’s a lost practice these days and much needed.

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    1. That’s a learning curve, that may take some practice, treating the girls as adults. How will I do that, when I will always see them as my babies? I know they will be patient with me, and of course my husband is there to remind me. I am reading Nancy DeMoss book, Adorned. This lead to the Bible Study idea. I’m still waiting for direction

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  15. I’ve just recently graduated from college and didn’t land a job in my field right out. Surprise surprise. So, I’ve been living with family and working an office job for the last year. I’m so tired of this limbo stage. I’m ready to be back in an apartment, living on my own, and I’m really ready to look forward to work in the morning instead of dreading it. For the past year, I’ve just felt this same way. I needed to wait. And, looking back, there’s a reason I’ve been here for a year with my family. They needed me. But now, now I am ready to move on. I’m terrified of jumping the gun because I’m impatient instead of waiting on God, but I can’t take this current situation much longer either.

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    1. It’s the waiting, especially for us with control issues. Have we not learnt that our God is trust worthy? If He spared not His only Son for our salvation, surely He is faithful enough for us to believe and patiently wait? 🙂 Lord, help us

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  16. I had the same reaction when my children starting growing beyond needing me. The Lord filled my days with more children I work with. He has plans for you and they will be a blessing! Thanks for sharing at Home Sweet Home!

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  17. Oh, oh! They grow up so fast don’t they? I’m not a mommy lol but I know how you feel! Well, do I? Lol know when I’m left home alone, I miss my mommy and other family members! I don’t like waiting either, but as I continue to grow spiritually I somewhat like waiting on the Lord! As you continue to go through the waiting process remember that you are not alone and God is always with you and leave you with this scripture Psalms 27:14 ❤ God bless!

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  18. Waiting is hard especially when you like to plan, isn’t it? But I guess that’s another way God teaches us to fully trust. Blessings to you! Thanks for linking up with us at the #LMMLinkup.

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  19. Brenda, I find your post truly touching, and quite beautiful. Keep trusting. My own circumstances could not be more different – I’ve always lived alone, for 40 years (since a teen), never married, no kids. But not having kids at home doesn’t mean a life of no love or purpose. Sounds to me like you’re a person who’ll generate love and purpose whatever your life situation. All best to you.

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  20. I’m an empty nester, too. My older son just got married and my younger son is in college. It’s a change, for sure. It’s a real challenge to trust God to be with them and watch over them when I can’t. He always has watched over them, but now I have to let Him be the ONE that is with them, not me. God is faithful, and his strength is made perfect in our weakness. Thank the Lord. I need that strength right now, and so do you. He is with you and will be with your girls. Sending love and prayers for this transition.

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  21. I am afraid…of the subject I chose….i wished for Medicine but got Pharma….in 6 months there wd be another entrance exam …there I will try my luck for Medicine ..But back home they said not to give up the Pharma seat I got…So I plan to study for entrance without giving up Pharma..I am afraid of my plan….people mostly leave the subject they don’t need and prepare …here I am planning to do both….I am afraid if my plan will work out or not…

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    1. Sometimes it’s hard to know which way to turn when the path isn’t very clear. Personally, if the choice is available, I would hang on to Pharma, while I prepare for medicine. I will pray for you, my friend, while you do the same. May the Lord give you clear direction in the path He wants you to go.

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