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TICK TOCK… TICK TOCK….

Hey friends, how are you today? October is here, can you believe it? Where did September go? Fall has officially arrived and up here, in my neck of woods; fall is absolutely beautiful.  With a sizzling temperature of 84°, today feels like summer but looks like fall.  I love days like this, I am utterly convinced that our God loves beauty.   The fall foliage is simply stunning and add to this, unseasonal high temperatures for almost the entire week and oh yes, “Oh how He loves you and me” is the song that fills my heart.  

I have so much to catch you up with; first, even writing it feels weird… I contracted COVID for the very first time.  For a minute there, I thought I was immune to the virus, but that was just pride telling tales. I was down for two whole weeks and let me tell you, it was not fun.  I wonder if the song “Oh how He loves you and me” filled my heart then? Can’t remember… I do remember feeling sorry for myself though. I did appreciate the love and care and attention, I received, throughout this time, I enjoy being pampered; can you tell?  So, there’s that, I feel better thankfully. Yesterday Anna and I once again began our running routine, although we walked, not run.   It was good to slow down and just admire the beauty of the outdoors.  

It’s October, nine months have passed, and September didn’t even stay long enough to say ‘hello’.  Two more months and if the Lord tarries, we shall celebrate a new year.  Good grief! I can’t believe it! Where did the time go? Throughout the past two weeks, as I convalesced from this virus, I once again developed an appreciation for time.   Nine months have gone ‘bye’, and as I was relegated to the ‘attic’ (like the crazy sister of time past) except of course this ‘attic’ is luxurious compared to then; anyway, back to the point.   As I isolated from the family; I just had to remind them to keep my house clean! (Good grief! Brenda, stay on track!) Back to the point! 

As I rusticated in the attic, away from the family, the sound of a clock, “tick tock, tick tock” reverberated in my brain.  As the world turns so, time matches forward.   A special friend encouraged me to take the time to nurture my relationship with the Lord.  It is a thing of beauty that unlike the rest of the family, our God delighted in spending time with me throughout COVID.  He didn’t think it was possible to contaminate Him, imagine that! Like the people with leprosy in Bible times, I felt like calling “unclean! unclean!” whenever I came across a family member throughout that time.  Oh, those rabbit trails…

We, who are bounded by time, have lost nine months.  What were your goals at the start of the new year? What progress have you made in achieving these goals? Have you had to abandon any of these goals? I’ve had to abandon a few of mine as you had too, I’m sure.   The ‘letting go’ of our desires is not always easy, sometimes it is profitable, especially those we can do nothing to change the outcome.   For me, disappointment comes, when I have made no attempt to achieve the goal because I allowed fear to hinder me.  

As I look back on the past nine months, I am thankful for the things the Lord has allowed me to accomplish.  But as I look back, I realized something else about me that was not at all pretty. For too many of my goals, fear kept my feet from movement.  Fear of the unknown keeps me stuck and unable to accomplish anything renown.   Fear is a powerful deterrent of goals.  Fear feels like a strait jacket, it restricts, hinders, controls.   I realized, during that time, that I like being in the ‘know’.   I like to know things.  I want to be told of the happenings around me, I hate not ‘knowing’.  

‘Tick tock, tick tock” as time continues to unfold, I realized I had a choice to make.  It is easy to do ‘just enough’, the bare minimum.  Easy to do what comes naturally, to stay where it is comfortable.  I can stay there and do just enough to get by. I can love just enough to be loved in return, I can give just enough to get back, I can go just far enough to find my way back, I can do as long, as I can guarantee the results. Or I can do better than ‘just enough’ and trust that my God is bigger and mighty and more powerful. I can trust that He is trustworthy, and I can let go. I can trust that it is His power and grace and mercy that is sufficient.  I could believe in His faithfulness and in His goodness.   

“Tick tock, tick tock” time is ticking away, and the time lost cannot be regained.  Do I remain the same or do I take this opportunity to change? How are you today? Have you had COVID? 

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33 responses to “TICK TOCK… TICK TOCK….”

  1. I’m so thankful for the Lord’s healing you. I’m sorry to hear that you were down for two weeks. I have had COVID twice, but the first time was the worst. God be praised, He brought me through both times, much to the relief of many as I’m a high risk

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  3. I’m glad you’re better. One thing about being sick for an extended period, it feels SO GOOD to be back to normal, or even close to normal! (Whatever “normal” is.)
    When I was in my teens, 20’s, and to some extent in my 30’s, I used to be that sick (miserable for a week, yucky for another week) about once a month, October through March, and there were times I thought, “If this is what my life is going to be like from now on, I think I’m done.” But it was not up to me. I learned what I needed to have a healthy immune system, and good health in general. Now some would consider me a health nut, but I’m 70 and healthier than I was in my 20’s. I’ve had Covid a couple of times, but it was “par for the course ” for me. I spent that time being shunned (😉) but enjoying the Lord’s company and getting a lot of writing done.

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  4. Father, even when life comes to weaken, love grace is our strength, and as time passes by, in You we find our stillness. In You we have our peace, as Your presence hovers, Your love covers. I pray for complete healing, for my sister. In Jesus’ name, Amen!

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  6. My hubby and I had COVID in early August. I think I have COVID brain. My thoughts are foggy. It’s difficult to concentrate. But I’m trudging through. Right now, that needs to be enough. Thanks for the great read.

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  7. So sorry that you got that nasty virus but glad you are on the mend. I never had it, praise God, although I was definitely exposed to it because we were visiting my son at the beginning of the outbreak and he got it while we were there. Anyway, goals come and goals go…some I met and some I didn’t and that’s okay because God is still there with me in spite of it all. Like you, I can hardly believe that the year is almost over and so thankful that I am here to see fall in all its beauty!

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  9. I contracted covid in Florida while we were at the end of our vacation in May. Got over it rather easily but the hospital bill for TWO nights was over $52,000.00‼️😱
    Of course, insurance covered all but a couple hundred, but by mistake they billed us, so I got a first-hand look at how criminally out health-“care” system works! $24 for one aspirin! $600 for a “15 minute” physical therapy session which was FIVE minutes of having me show I did not need phys tx!
    LOTS of crooked biking from One Health Orlando! So sad, nothing we could do even though we reported it to FBI as well as a fraud agency in Florida.🤯

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  10. I am glad to hear you have recovered from covid are out of the attic and outside enjoying the outdoors. 🙂 The past months have flown by; several of my goals as well, life and family are keeping me busy. Blessings! 🌺

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  11. We’ve been busy working to get a racoon that got stuck in our attic out, got that out and entry points blocked. Now we think we have rats, the critter company that helped us with the racoon is more than happy to help us with the rats – for a price of course. We got a ten year plumbing issue fixed, wasn’t as bad as we thought it would be, but still cost a pretty penny. We set out to get bids on getting the tile redone in our shower and bathroom area, when we remembered we had to get the furnace looked at first. That racoon knocked our exhaust pipe off its correct placement and my husband knew we wouldn’t be able to use the heater until it gets fixed. Well, the first HVAC company condemned the heater unit and turned off the gas to it. And since we knew the A/C unit is old too, we knew we should be replacing that too. So we set out to get bids for that job. So now we are coordinating the getting rid of rats job and the replace A/C heater job. The batteries on my husband’s mobility scooter weren’t keeping a charge so he was trying to get a hold of someone at the VA to put in a work order to get those replaced. That was back in August. No one was calling, long story short, they had the wrong number on file, so when the vendor was calling to set up an appt., my husband was never getting the calls. We have them replaced now – whew!

    Other this and that stuff has been happening. I talk about them in some of my blogs. So life is a roller coaster, but at least its been more of a fun one, versus the past several years and the past couple decades having to ride one that’s not so fun. Our Loving Father is working things out and making things calmer, which I do so appreciate having to live so long with too much turmoil. Not that the trials and tribulations are over, but I’m handling them much better these days. THANK YOU JESUS, right?

    Glad you are feeling better and got to get a blog out. Friday and the weekend is suppose to bring us a cool front and having to live with triple degree temps since June, the last few weeks its been in the 90’s as the high, so not much a difference, we are all looking forward to the weekend. And when I say all, I mean everyone in our city and surrounding counties – LOL. Anyway, I’ll let you go. Keep us posted when you can. Yeshua’s Blessings on you and yours. Hugs and Prayers. Susan.

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  12. Oh no, sorry to hear you have been sick for two weeks! It’s no fun. I’m sick now and taking care of my daughter who also caught the bug. I refuse to do Covid tests . It’s just a virus . But I am ready to get back to normal. Glad you are feeling up to running. Don’t push yourself too hard . Yes, we have to let go and let God. 💕

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