I DON’T WANT TO BE ME, ANYMORE!

When I was a little girl I mentally swapped my life for someone else’s, all the time.  I was convinced I would be happier if I was more athletic like her or taller like her, or more bold like her.  I didn’t like being me, because being me was no fun at all.   My imaginary life was always better than mine.Jer 17 9Well I recently realized that I was right all along, but I used the wrong standard. I really don’t want to be me anymore. But the standard isn’t the next person; it’s the Word of God.  Why don’t I want to be me anymore?  Me isn’t a nice person.  Me isn’t kind or compassionate. Me thinks way too much about herself to be concerned about anyone else.  Me rarely does something for anyone if it’s not attached to an ulterior motive. Me thinks, “how does he/she benefit my life?”  Me can be pretty selfish.  Me often doesn’t think before she speaks.  Me can be very critical, especially when things are not done her way. Me always thinks she is right, all the time.  Me hates saying sorry.  Me has the tendency to be somewhat of a perfectionist; she hesitates to do things if she is not absolutely convinced it will be perfect.  Me can be a loner at times, she gets tired of people quickly. Me gets very impatient with people and has been known to be mean sometimes.  Me also has the tendency to hold grudges. Me struggles with pride.   Me is sometimes afraid to try new or uncomfortable things.  Me likes sameness: she struggles with change (unless she implements it, of course).  Do you see why now, I don’t want to be me anymore? Me finds it hard to obey God and take Him at His Word.  She becomes anxious when situations are beyond her control. Oh yes, me has control issues.  I just don’t want to be me, anymore! Eph 4 32I want to be kind to others.  I want to forgive faster; not just with words, but primarily demonstrate that with actions. (Ephesians 4:32)  I want to think of others better than myself; I want to be unselfish and humble.  (Philippians 2:3, 4) I want to open my mouth with wisdom and I want the law of kindness to be on my tongue (Proverbs 31:26).  I want to be anxious for nothing, but in everything I want to bring my desires and needs before God. (Philippians 4:6). I want to edify and encourage others (I Thessalonians 5:11).rom 5 20   And I want to do good works (Ephesians 2:10) and spur others unto good works (Hebrews 10:24).  I want to put on strength and honor as my clothing (Proverbs 31:25).  I want to be a woman of integrity and dignity. I want to be known as a woman of joy, peace, patience, goodness, gentleness. (Galatians 5:22, 23).   I want to be characterized as a loving woman (I Corinthians 13:1). I want to be her now; I want to be that virtuous woman (Proverbs 31:10).  pro-31-30 How about you? Do you want to be Me?closing1brenda